The inevitable.
Well, it finally happened. My grandparents found out that I haven't done any of my online class work. They got a bill a few days ago saying that because of my class being deleted, I was now a part time student, and now the grants won't pay for my classes. I wasn't expecting something like that, but I knew they were going to find out eventually. The only thing that sucks about this is the bill itself. $1500 for this semester. They were perplexed as they didn't know how anyone was going to pay for it. Seems as though the bank account they set up for me isn't an option, but they have not said a word about it. Either they want to keep it for themselves, or they haven't even thought about it. Either way, a lot of money is going to be spent by us. This is mainly my dad's fault. If he hadn't forced me to go to college, my grandparents wouldn't have to be stuck with the bill, but I guess they have decided not to send my dad the bill because they know he can't pay for it. It seems we think alike in some ways, but I believe my dad should be the one to deal with it. The worst part about this is I haven't told them I failed a few classes last semester, and possibly failing at least one this time. I just had my ear chewed out by my grandfather about how I should take advantage of the grants, that he had to go to night school in the army, and blah-de-f***ing blah. I choose the way I want to live, not anyone else. If they're putting me through something they think will benefit me, they need to check with me first cause after that, I'm as ignorant as I possibly can. I just want to be left alone without me f***ing around with anyone else's lives. I want no help from anyone. I want to make my own decisions for my life. But I can't tell them that yet. At least not until I get this bill crap dealt with.

On a side note, I have messed around with the page's color scheme a couple days ago due to boredom. At least it doesn't have too much red as it did before. Alas, I'm still not satisfied with it. I guess you get what you pay for.

In other news, I've decided to work on my chakras. My strongest one, the third eye, is balanced enough for me, but my other ones are horribly lacking. I need to start working on my state of mind, try to balance everything out so that there's not so much cluttered stuff to go through. Considering me, this will be an life-long task... but it needs to be done. If I am to figure myself out, I need to put things in order, much like a story, so that do not end up confused. So, I've got a lot of work ahead of me. Maybe I'll have more to write about when I'm done.